Updating Your Contract With Yourself


It has been completely on my heart to share with our community lately about contracts. We go about our every day and don’t even recognize the pressure we put on ourselves. I am not talking about pressure like keeping a clean house or being a great parent but pressure on ourselves to act a certain way or look a certain way. I want to remind each and every one of you that you were designed for a plan and purpose and that comes in all shapes and sizes. Do I think we have to take care of ourselves? Absolutely i do. But there are some people that take care of themselves and still “look” overweight whatever that looks like or someone that takes care of themselves and is super duper skinny whatever that looks like. You see, this is an opinion for each and everyone of us. Your thought on skinny looks different than mine, your thought on overweight looks different than mine, your thought on healthy is different, as well as, every other opinion out there. You see, it is just an opinion……. Do you get where I am coming from? We need to start looking at ourselves being confident NOT PERFECT. Not one of us is perfect, nor would I want to be! That would be a lot of pressure.

I’m going to share a little story with you and it’s about to get real. A few years back I challenged myself to get to a place physically that I had really never been. I struggled with my weight my entire life and as some of you long-time Get Fitters know I have tried every diet under the sun. I had been 70 pounds overweight, 25 pounds underweight and everywhere in between. When I was small I never had muscle tone, so that was my challenge; I wanted to be “toned” again whatever that looks like (enter your opinion).

At this time I was a fews years out from chemo and was eating really really well. I mean so legalistic, not one thing went in my mouth that was not well-sourced or organic. I NEVER ate out! I was so afraid if I ate something off track i would get cancer again. So basically it was a clean slate. As time went on I lost fat and gained a load of muscle which I absolutely loved. I loved how I looked and I loved how I felt. A few months into this my hubby and I decided we were going to take some fitness photos. Long story short one of them ended up in the studio ( for those of you that know me I HATE being the center of attention) The photo was amazing and there was a lot of hard work that went into it. Lots of workouts / Double days / Heavy weights / nutrition on point. BUT All of a sudden that stupid photo haunted me.



A few reasons.

#1 For 3 days before the shoot I could only drink tiny sips of water so my muscles would pop for the shoot. Honestly I died, I lived on chicken and asparagus for 7 days prior to the shoot so all my water weight would decrease. Was I happy with the way my body looked prior to the 7 days of eating and not drinking water? YES but i want to take it to the extreme and that I did. The photos were BEAUTIFUL… Not perfect, but I loved them.

#2 (Enter back injury) All of the sudden, I couldn’t work out the way I had to to keep up with my muscle tone and fat loss; my cardio was horrible. I had to crawl at times on the ground because I couldn't get up. But everyday that I came to the studio, that picture was there and THERE were all of our clients looking at that picture and then staring at me saying is that the same person LOL (enter my opinion). For a few years my muscle was slowly decreasing and my weight was changing and every day I looked at what I was physically and what I had become. It is easy to fall into the trap of the mental beat-yourself-up phase.
Through these last 7 years I have had my share of this thought process and as you can see, it quickly can creep back into our lives little by little.

Enter the contract I was talking about at the beginning. We all sign contracts for “things” in our lives like cars and houses but we also need to have a contracts with ourselves. I had to change my contract with myself. I had to embrace that photo and embrace the fact that I don't look like that anymore and thats ok ( I was excited when they took that sucker down though LOL) I am happy where I am at that moment. I have changed my contract many times since then as I babied my injury and accepted that who I was made to be is so much more than just physical. I want to tell you this is an easy process but it isn’t, it is the little steps and the contract changing that has got me there. I would be lying if I told you I don't struggle but i do, everyone has their things, it’s how we handle it that matters. So if you find yourself in a spot like this weighing in and that number on the scale hitting you like a pile of bricks or you have been injured, or whatever it may be, remember you need to change your contract with yourself. That doesn't mean that this contract will stay with you forever; you can always update it again, but give yourself a mental break from being so hard on yourself. Grace, not perfection.


Heather Sutton is the Director of Nutrition at Get Fit Modesto